You are worthless bitchess

Sunday, December 20, 2009 at 1:33 AM

For once i want you to know that im alwys prioritise my family first .
everyday , every mins , everysecs , i remember my family .
even thouqh im at school , i wonder what you and siblings are doing ..
Im at school trying very hard to study and get all the knowing info inside ma head .
Dont you even know how good am i to scarifrce all that do you , do you ? ): ..

Before i went out from the house , i alwys pray to him to take care of my family , have a happiness
family , take good care of my house , be healthy and stuffs , do you ever know that yr dauqhter alwys did that for her family .
Dont you know yr 1st dauqhter wants a happiness from her family , since mummy gone , dont you realise you dont even share your problems , you dont cherish your love to us , you dont even care to us , do you ?!

For crying out loud , ive been depressed for quite sometimes , do you even know ?! ive been keeping all my problems without sharing wit others and its hurts me alot , do you even know ?! I sit down by the corner of my room and burst out crying just to make me feel qood , do you even know ?! ive been wondering and waiting when will you asking your children to get dressed and have a day toqether , only us family , when dad when ?! )`: Time will revealed when you will chanqe , im only can cry inside , sometimes its hard for me to share wit others even wit my great best friend .

Im not blaming you wit who ever you know or whatsoever , i know you are lonely , i know you want someone to talk to , to share in and out BUT mie ? especially me daddy , mieeeeee )`: .. I want your love , i want your concern , i want to be pampered , i just cant recall since when i have all that feeling , its just fade hah , haisssh , how i wish mummy was here and can hear all my sorrows ..
Its really hurting me much to see you like this , you just dont have the quality to spend time wit your children , i swear tat im tired to fouqht wit you all the time like this , i swear daddy , plish for once understand me will you , even when the first time i get into ite , you dont even ask how the school , how my schedule , whenever i reached home , straiqht in bed and get to sleep , you scold me because i didnt do my housechores and i answered im tired , i can do it the other day right wit a high tone , dont you know i feel bad talking to you like that , i feel bad and i ask him for forgiveness because that not im intend to do tat and i really hope im forgiven .

my birthday will be coming in 2 weeks time , i just hope you know that im gonna turn 17 soon . Hoping you will at least wish me saying happy birthday , i will wait daddy , we see how aye weather you remember or not , just want to let it out , my birthday meant nothing to me , a day which i want to remember thru out the year but i guess i cant wanna know why , a day which i spend like the other simple day wishing myself happy birthday and pretty hope i get what i want )`: , do you know thru this sentence im typing , my tears fell out , cant you see how sad i am , CANT YOU SEE )`: ..*tears droping* I went out from the house just want to met a friend near house and yet you scold me , the weird was if i wanna qo out far from house , you dont scold , but why near house , you want to make a fuss .. And when it strikes you are super mad , you dont let me in to the house , do you know im being super fcuking patients with you , im trying very hard not to be rude wit you , coz you the want i left now and i dont want you to think that you are failure ..

Wanna say im proud to be your dauqhter , i qonna stand for anything , i wont let us others make my family down , i wont let all the comments bring ma family to and end , i wont , i hold my words daddy , its just tat i really hope you understand me for once , im happy to see you happy same qoes to ma siblings , i dont mind keeping all the sadness alone , . Wanted you to know that im still exists , just want you to know , you better think twice in what are you qonna throw word on to me , daddy , you the best dad i ever had , you the best dad that alwys fulfilled what your childrens wants , i thankful for that , i really do , but that doesnt mean you can do whatever you want , remember yr children first than comes to others , we need you okay , please !! )`: chanqe for the better , nex year sister will step into ite collaqe with me , and that means we are all qonna be busy , i just want you to ask her school and stuffs , i dont wish to see my siblings hope qone down , i dont want to , daddy please chanqe for the better , i miss the old you , i really do ..

: Mama , im missinq you riqht here , i miss all the great times we spend toqether , i miss when the time i was warded at the hopsital , you came and take a look on me , brings all my needs , i share all the things that i kept by myself to you , you told me to be stronq even when i was inject by the doctor you were the want who feel the pain .Mama , sometimes i wonder why he took you from me , doesnt HE know i still need you , its not the time yet , i just feel want to follow you , how i wish you were still here and i can share all my stories and problems . Do you know i feel so useless without you by my side , i swear i dunnoe how to express how i miss you . Even when im sick , i even went to clinic alone like no one care , do you know how super sad i am , haish , why my luck is like this mama , whyyy , even he wants to know how long i can be like this , i would say , i cant . What does you expect ? be strong and alwys face the good of my future without someone who can make me stronger , haish mama , even you are far away from me , please alwys be near my heart , ily and i miss you )`:

Labels: for once daddy understnd me

Saturday, December 19, 2009 at 7:09 PM

Hello Peeposss ~
Currently now im bored , wanna know why actually i also dunnoe why , hahaha , okaaay randooooooooom ~
merepek uh kao nana , alamaaaaaak , heeeeeeeees .
Okay so for the whole day im at home , you see how good i am . Good girl maaah ^^ .. =P

Waked up around 2 plus in the afternoon , phewww am i that tired , hehehe , i think its because i talk on the phone wit someone till at 5 , hahaha , thanks keep me accompany aye fahmi , its just that by out of a sudden i just cant sleeep , weird ehh , aiya ! hahaha .. So around 5 plus am than i get back to sleeep , when i woke up , i received many missed calls and messaqe , waddddduh , manyok naaah , apo cite ehhh ? weeee ~

Wake up , wash face *pssst till now i havent bathed yet * , shhh kay diam , at least i brush teeth and wash face alr okay and watched tv wit lil bro than now im updating as daddy was using so yea i waited -,- ..Currently now im superbored ya know , boringggggggggggggg ~ ishkkkkk !
Kay nehmind , gonna meet fahmi later after he celebrate his mommy bdae wit his family , so yea i understood , heeeeeeeees & im missing "Y" , haisssh , nvrmind will soon make a call of he is nt busy aye (:

As for now i wanna bath , i think i alr get a msq from fahmi that he is on the way *shock face* , baik aku gie mandddddddddddi duluuuuuuuuuuuuu , hehehe .. Toodles lovelies ~ Jaga diri , da read tagg me okaaay , must tawwww if you loveee meeeee , mwaaaaaaah ^^

Labels: people is imperfect darling

Friday, December 18, 2009 at 10:03 PM

Hey hai !
Just got back from home wit bestie , haiya nqan tu oranq gila , oranq leh pk aku pon gila juqak nqan dier , hahahaha ! Sakit jiwa peh anak , dunnoe what to say animore to her , dier da makin melarat , nak kena anta IMH . Help , Help , help ~ kay aku mepek , da diam uhs !! hahahaha ..

Was abit pissed by bestie actually , wth mie and her was super hungry and yet we straight wanna go met up this guy which a friend of bestie which i also knew this guy also ~ , hahaha , small world eh babe ~ kwanq3 ! but then tu takpe , bikin peranqai uh sia tu laki , walaowei .. Perut da bunyi makin lama bestie aku nak turun , makin bising uh mulut aku .. aiya !

Then tu takper , ada bestieku tanya asl manyak2 tmpt aku dok depan court , than where should i sit , and what does she expecting me to do , sit far far away , hahaha . kecoh uh tu wan babe , aiyo ! pening pening .. The most thanq was , wanie and wan was shocked when i make friends wit wan friends , hahahaha , bestieku kan , bestieku kan , errrrm , errrm takper , mayb last sentence aku jawab kay , wahahaha*sumpah peh evil laugh* ..

Proceed to CS and have our late breakfast and late lunch which means to our dinner la kans , mekkkk , mane tak nyaaaaaa , aku da kebulur beh lama lama plak tu , hmpffffft !! mara niek , mara niekkk , hahaha ! Talked and laughed wit bestie as if like da seribu tahun tak jmp and plus wit our stories aye babe , hahaha kecoh uhs lu ! wahahha .. Before going home , rasa nak beli mc flurry oreo [ FAV ] , as in like i cant rewind since the last i ate it , hahaha and the person who make the ice cream was a guy mCcafe nye oranq and he wassssss attractive giler , and we smile and giggle each other and bestie saw it and she was superJEALOUS ! hahahahhahahaha ! kay aku da keluar kan daaaaaa , da puas daaaaa ~ hahahahhahahha !! Ape maciaaaaaaaaaaaaam wanie , wohoooooo , ! hahahaha .. kay stop it .

Syg Syg , nak tao tak bestie ii bual ape today nqan ii , when she was pissed wit wan , she say this " kalo apit da keluaarr , tk lama lagikk future mataer aku , " , i go -___________- " , da beranqan sianq sianq sei dektu , mampos , hahaha !
now otp nqan wit kimmy , he is so stress wit his results as in wanna apply this and stuffs , many people called me apon this say weather how to apply and stuffs , aiyoooo ~ manyak stress ! hahaha .. kay la im done here , will sooon update all the pichas whre ive gone ! huak ~
*lala , kalao senanq , datanq at ma place at 2 on sunday okaaay sygs , tk menqharap kan kao juqak actually , hahahaha *

Labels: Oh my there is alwys have this feelinq cominq ahead

at 3:11 PM

Heyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lovelies ~
Wadcha doingggggggg [ kay pt niek random ] ..
Wahahahaha , sorry for the lack updates ~ Wooooooo !
Tk sanqka ku busy betol , hahaha . tak la juqaaaaaak , gytuk2 jeee . hehehehe , got miss me or not ? hahaha i know you dooooo especially to some bicthes riqht ! huaaaaaak ~ no offence deeeeeh ~~

Hmmm , yesterday was aisha gf bdae , senanq kate i smild when she say she have fun wit me and bestie as the people she wanted the most on her side is not wit her yesterday so we do enjoyed aye love , ada kite mestie the day okay okay , heeeeee ~
We spend time mostly at marina and esp , there alot of people signing and making wishes drawing at this big ball , i intend to say what you know , can i alwys be happy and have all the people i love around me (: hehehe , tkper la nex tyme mayb ~

My birthday is in 2 weeks time babeyh ~ ape maciaaaaaaam !
hahahaha , ala bole gituk , happy skq nanti da tiba sodey ~ sebab tu oranq kate jqn mengharap kan sanqat , hmpffft , hahaha okay la , be patients nana , sbar sabar , hehehee ..

Now i at bestie crib , will soon elaborate i went out wit yayat and met up eenaShawty . weeeeeeeeee ~ Nak upload pic , memory dier sunqqo big big ya know , tsk , tkper , amek masa , aliyos babies , will be back soooon !
Much loves , mwah ^^

Labels: My hearts say its all

Tuesday, December 15, 2009 at 10:22 PM

YESSA ! SHE BACK !

guess who back , of course my dearest boyfriend , duhhhhhhh !

kay fakeee , hahaha , My twin baby is back yaww .

Okay sunqqo miss her , i wait for you ya know , 7 hari 7 malam .

Terpikir pikir pe dier buat , da makan blm , hahaha , sweeet kan aku , i knowwww =P ..

I was happy indeed for sure when i received a call from her ard evening as the day
before that , i text her when she reached spore , i`ll be the first want to inform that she
reached spore safe and sound but than i dunnoe weather im the first or not , but oh well
still happy that she called me thouqh ..

Thouqht wanted to meet her soon , as like tmr , hahaha , but sadly she tired , nehmind ,
understand and understood * ikut hati kalo tao ruma dier , mmq da lama serbu , hehehes *

oh well as for todaay , i rott at home onlyy , kinda not feelinq well actually .

Havinq period aniwae , makes me feel so swinq swinq , aiyaa leceh nyerrr ..

Nasib tak scold scold people , but but daddy plak yang naik angin tk tentu pasal , aiyoo ,

hahaha , niek la ma adek peranqai yg si laki tuu ,nakal mcm ayah dier juqaaak , hahaha !

Now currently chatting wit yayat stupid boy , hahaha , my senior , da grad . Tak lama lagik ,

da ns orq tuu kan , hehehe (: , and now i feel giddy habis , pening sio ~ alahaaai sodey !

Labels: giddy ):

Monday, December 14, 2009 at 11:02 AM

Hello Amigossssssssssss ~
feel much miss without updatinq ma blog kan kan ^^ .
Oh been busy wit projects schools and all ma babiesss ~
Now kinda just woke up , and later will be mittinq ma peeps at ecp to do some project worrrk ~ ..

I think today gonna be a short and simple post from me .
i gonna do the proper post on the next update okaay ..
Yest have superb fun day wit bestie and aisha gf , i will update abt it . So yea actually there much to say but than nehmind , ii keep it first .

Now the pic which you see on the left is not edit , ada puas sama aku . Nak ckp ape , buruk , tk lawa , abeyh kao nak aku wad pe , ? hanya tu je koranq mampu crtizie people and stuffs .Omgggggggggggg , no life la sygggg . eh beyda kampong , aku mcm somebody or step gerek ? why you jealous or wad ? not satisfied wit me ? what are you gonna do ? spam me all the way ? HAHAHAHAHA , go ahead ! i dun mind stupid bitch , aku da makan da niek semuaaaa , berani letak nama merepek , ada berani mao tunjuk mukeeee ? uh niek lagik satuuuu niek shima , you ckp i muke anjing , confirm tk confirm syggg , lu mcm tk syg mulut lu jeeee , wadddddddduh ! pantang nenek aku niekkkk , adoi . Meh la bersemuka nqan ii , kite tenqok betapa LAWA NYE KAAAO ! okay darla .
I WILL BE AT ECP TODAY AT 2PM , MEET ME THERE OKAY BITCHES !
Aku siap menunqqu koranq , (:

Till here babies ~ ..
update sooooon .
mwah mwah ..
wanna bath go ecp meet ma 2 family thereeeee ..

Labels: i love where its coming

Friday, December 11, 2009 at 9:06 PM

School holiday had already started and im wonder what am i gonna do at home for the next 3 weeks , hmmm ..
I really hope im not gonna rot alwys at home , there is plans but i dont think im qonna attend all , duit saper naq supply , hehs .
Gonna miss ma classmates and ma 2nd family , haish , miss me horr , hehehe ~ ..

Ohh just got back from marsiling met ma dearest girlfriend mas , oh gosh , sweeet kan aku dari tamp peqi tmpt kao -.- , hahaha , and aku rindu nasi goreng kao tu , hehehe , sorry eh tertdo pat uma kao , i tired ya know , best juqak sleep at your house eh , must overniqht one day , ^^ ..
ma bad didnt took pic wit her , nehmind sooon aye baby ~ ..

Alahaaaai twin i takd di sinqapore , she be bck next week , haish , lama nah , must buy me somthing hor from there , hehehe , rindu dierrrr , da la pics kite keluar belom send , hmmpfft ! haha takper , wait for her then .
Gonna think what am i gonna do for mine holiday . weeee~ ..

If you think you are perfect enouqh , how abt you come and see me and tell me how does it feel to be a perfect person in this world , common , by sayinq mie and ma sis dun have the looks and what does you expect me to do , beg kao janqan spam aku gituk mcm , menanqis janqan ckp aku gituk ,
kao boleh perqi jahanam la , nama dinah dinoh , nama kamponq , huak ~ berambus sua koranq . Mati pon chantek , koranq hidup menyusahkan oranq wad pe kan sayanq . hahaha besar peh kekek niek semua musibot . Da betol tk puas nqan aku dhen spam betol2 okaaay , pas tu kite jumpe2 kay sial , sayanq koranq sanqant2 ^^ .. Cukup eh testing akuu , last warning ~
Seburuk aku kan sayanq , aku tetap disayanqi teman temanku , Seburuk aku , aku tetap letak gmbr muke buruk aku walaumcm mane peh buruk kalo koranq , confem tknk letak kan , da hodoh sanqat that why , i knowwwwwwwwwww =P ..
THIS IS ONLY YOU GOT , BETTER HARDER OKAY DARLINGS ~

As`alamualaikum ..

Labels: better think more harder than this

at 12:33 AM

Hello sayang`s

Im here updating to my sweetest readers .

well let talk abt yesT , swear i have fun , totally ~ Gaaaaah .

Cycyling at ecp wit ma 2nd family was supergreat okaay ..

Met up nana at school as she is waitinq for her bf finish his school than after that ,

came by hawa , we eat at school , blahblah , talk here and there , we proceed to ecp

to met dian and her bf .

At first intend to do the film today but i dun quite sure what dian and nana say

but than we didnt do it but we cycle all the way . OMG , i feel the breeze there , woah ! hahaha .

Best couple2 niek racinq racinq uhs , da hawa and me left behind all alone , sad kan ): .

hahaha , and oh there is one part hawa and me terbabas and ma selipar terlempar jauh oi ,

sunqqo best sekali ya know , hahaha , and oh oh i leh bawa hawa siol , hahaha banqqa pe aku , huak ~ , of coz la happy tak pena2 bawak oranq kan ,heh .

Took superduper many2 pic , i suke sekali , lg2 pat chamwore , hehehe ..

dian kakaku tersayanq , send yer nanti tu semua pichas kay , sayanq kao many2 (: .

ard 8 plus send bck the bicycyle and we proceed to macd and have our so call dinner dhen

proceed to the bustop and we chamwore aqain and go home .

i thought the bustop where we took have 31 bus all the way tamp sei dian , that why i didnt

board up wit hawa and the rest , cheat ma feelinq only .hmppft =P

Bus-ed all the way home ALONE , drop by bedok inter and took anther bus there ,

and straiqht home sweeet home , thouqht wanna met up bestie but she just came bck and

have her dinner wit her family outside so yea nehmind , mayb next tyme aye darla .

super tired , super have fun today , and super lovinq ma family ..

FAMILYKU TERSAYANG , ADEKMU YANG LAST SAYANG YOU ALL MANY2 OKAY ^^

below pichas is where im bored inside the bus and im all alone , hehehe .